9:23A – I had a horrible nights sleep Thursday night (aka my brain is a bastard 😓) so I came home last night and crashed the fuck out. Which would have been 100% more enjoyable to do in my boyfriend’s bed, but it’s not feasible (or probably welcome) to work over there AND I’m sure he could use a break. I’m starting to realize I’m a bit much to handle says the woman with the blog dedicated to the weird and wonderful shit she discovers doing online SW.

Since I came home and immediately went to bed, my sleep schedule is now fucked enough to see if I can successfully pull double shifts. Woo! My inner capitalist is squealing with joy. My outer human probably looks a lot less pleased about the possibility (probability) this could be my new standard. 🙃

I’m gonna smoke a cigarette and see just how different the day dudes are from the night.

9:53A – First viewer to say anything in my room today was… JFC.

Weirdo232 has logged on

Weirdo232 (invisible): Come to Minnesota and cuddle with me gorgeous

Me: I bet it’s cold enough up there too…

Weirdo232 (invisible): Im a great big spoon ill keep you warm

Me: Too bad I don’t really exist outside of the internet.

Weirdo232 (invisible): I’d totally marry you n make babies with you gorgeous

Me: Nope, not doing that with you or anyone on here.

Weirdo232 has logged off (reason: user left)

Why are more and more people trying to be cutesy/use cam sites like dating sites? 🤨 I don’t remember it being this bad when I first started. I don’t mind small talk or people flirting, but something about the mass amounts of people wanting to have me IRL.

I know the way we socialize men is to think that all women are whores anyway, but as an actual (at least digitally) seller of slut, come with the understanding of why we’re both there (fucking in exchange for money) and stop making it so murky and awkward.

It’s too damn early for this shit 😫 and I’m having to remind myself constantly to smile like I usually do.

10:55A – Well, there money is still there, but it’s definitely not as free flowing as it was the other night.

It only took me an hour to start subconsciously smirking like usual. 🤦‍♀️

11:03A – Dirty Stories came back. He’s been doing shows with me for a month now or so. He’s the type of pervert that gets off on simply talking about his own sexual exploits/fantasies. Usually about other men using his asshole as a cum dump.

One of the last times he popped me into a show, he had an asshole full of something that could have been cum. It was actually pretty impressive. 😆 Could have very easily just been cum-like lube, but I’ll give him the benefit of the doubt on that one.

I’ll be honest with you, I don’t believe even half of the shit people say to me on this site, they’re always talking with the self-serving side of their face. Which makes total sense if you’re paying by the minute to do it.

Lately his favorite thing is his bug catcher fetish. No, it doesn’t involve actual bugs. It’s a group of people who get off on the idea of catching an STI. 😬 A lot of them specifically are into the idea of catching the big one – HIV.

The show previous to today’s he’d been giddy about the thought of attending a sex party where quite a few people in the fuck circle were known to be positive. For the record, I don’t treat my interactions at work like real life. If you’ve got a fantasy that’s not totally fucked up or immoral, I’ll indulge it without a second thought because 9 times out of 10 it’s just that for all parties involved: a fantasy.

He had asked if I thought he should go through with it after telling me how much the thought of catching a horrible disease like HIV turned him on. I gave him the best non-answer anyone could given the situation: get on PrEP & follow your hole’s desire.

He came back today to tell me he had once again been used as a cum dumpster for the lovely folks in his perverted little social circle and two were known to be positive. I congratulated after he told me he was indeed on PrEP and then abruptly ended the show.

Even after years of interacting with them personally and professionally I don’t fully understand my own species, but whatever. 🤷‍♀️

11:24A – I can’t seem to chill and get in full work mode until I’ve made my first $50 of the day. 😣 Oof. Took a bit longer than usual today, but I’m chalking that up to never being online during this time of the day. Or online while sober during the day at all. 👀

Also, there’s something soothing as fuck about Johnny Cash – Cocaine Blues softly playing in the background as I sit and stare into the cock mines. 😌

11:39A – Sometimes the universe is kind. I was just about to pause my stream to smoke (the amount of freeloading smoke fetishist is HIGH) when a smoke obsessed pervert from earlier came back in and took me into another cigarette based show. Well, alright then. I’ll take it. 😁

I need a fuckin’ Red Bull right now. 😕 If the universe wants to make one of those magically appear too, I’d be super thankful.

😅

12:47P – Got taken into a show to degrade a guy while he jerked off. No other context. So I just went for it. 🤷‍♀️

“That’s right keep jerking that pathetic little cock. I can’t wait to see you shoot out that sad little load. On second thought… I bet it won’t even shoot out, it’ll probably just dribble.”

And I was correct. 😂

1:22P – Almost done with my first shift. The last show I had was a request for DP. Okay, pretty easy and usually fun. Being the lazy cunt I am, I asked if he was fine with me using my “big purple butt plug” and he quipped back with a “Yes! I wish you’d put it in my ass.“

Way to be a team player, guy! 🤘

He came before I even got the plug all the way in. I just kept on doing what he had planned the show out to be. I can’t decide whether I’m impressed at the speed or disappointed at how little money I got from doing the show. 😆

1:30P – Fuck bless the queef fetish guys. They make my job both fun and sorta easy. And kudos to the childhood friend I had who thought she was teaching me to fart on command when it was indeed much different. 😂

1:48P – Spending the last four minutes of my shift with my stream paused because once it picked up, it REALLY picked up. 💲💲💲

I guess I also do dayshifts now.